Sleep deprived and back to blogging

In true twin mummy fashion i haven't had much spare time to be writing blog posts. But my sleep deprivation rivals most and I'm sure my memories of this first year and beyond may be sparse and I really want to keep a record for Bailey and Blake, so I'm back to blogging. 

So I'll start with talking about the big topic of sleep. Every new mum asks and wants to know how to achieve a full nights sleep and when will it happen. It's something that if achieved mums boast about as if they have a shinny medal around their necks for good parenting. 8 months in and I don't have a medal yet. Well maybe I could claim half as Bailey is a great sleeper and will often sleep from 6.30 pm until 6am. Blake however, can need me between 2 and 8 times a night. I feel that I have partly created this problem because when he cries I go to him quickly to prevent disturbing  Bailey. A very common problem with mothers of twins I'm sure. I also always feed him to sleep and put him down in his cot asleep. I always knew they where big no no's. But when you are desperate for sleep and know that these things will work you do what ever it takes to survive. I also know that Bailey was naturally a good sleeper and Blake isn't so it's all luck of the draw. 

Over the last few months I've made lots of silly mistakes which I will attribute to sleep deprivation, leaving my purse at the supermarket, going to the shops to get my eyebrows threaded and forgetting to get them threaded are just a few.

I am ashamed. To say I am keeping Starbucks in business. I am known by name in there and my friends 1 year old calls my name whenever she see's a Starbucks.

I have been toying with the idea of getting a sleep consultant to help. I know if I had someone to answer to I'd be much more effective. But against my better judgement I'm going to attempt to fix it myself. Tonight I'm changing the routine so that the breast feed comes before the bath and so I don't feed them to sleep. I will read a story with them before bed and then try to put Blake down using 'shush, pat' I will keep bailey out of the room until sleep is archived with Blake. I'm hoping this is the first hurdle then he will learn to put himself to sleep and not wake and need me so much in the night. 

Blake if you find this traumatic and it haunts you in later life, hopefully you can understand that I'm only doing this to help teach you the skill of getting to sleep without help.  This skill will last you a lifetime. I'm sorry for the short term pain and I love you. Xxx